Emotional Triggers

So I had my first discipline punishment tonight. I submitted, it was un pleasant. I thanked him with oral afterwards. I was then told to spend the next few hours cleaning the master bedroom and bath without my ipod or television to make up for the time I spent on the computer. I did this. He went downstairs to exercise.
After punishment, I am finding that I am in adoration of my HOH. Complete adoration. I can’t get enough of him. So when he came back upstairs, I was very touchy feely with him. But his behavior greatly confused me. First he said that I had an attitude and that I was slipping back into bad behavior. I was a little annoyed at all of the cleaning I had been doing an him saying to me that it didn’t look like I had done much. I reigned it in- I honestly didn’t realize I was being snippy. He reminded me to be submissive and I went right back into adoration mode. Then he just snapped and told me essentially to back off and stop trying to get into his pants. I literally shut down. I felt rejected, yes, but it felt like so much more than that. I completely cut off, like all of the ardor I had just a moment ago was chopped away. He knew I shut down. I told him that I didn’t know what he wanted, first I was too snarky, then I was too touchy. Too cold, then too hot, then too cold again. He tried to make amends, but I just can’t even be with him right now. I didn’t want to argue, I didn’t know what to even say. I can barely identify it.
The way I am processing it is that when I submit myself to his discipline, it opens up such deep emotions, not surface emotions, but deep seeded ones that are only beginning to formulate within me. I need him afterwards in such a raw way. He refused me. I felt betrayed. I felt wounded. Used. Justified or not, it is how I felt. How I still feel.
I know we need to work through this. We are new to this lifestyle and neither one of us really knows our guidelines as of yet. He needs leniency as a HOH. It is new that I didn’t retaliate and try to hurt him, as I would have in the past. I don’t know what exactly held me back. Either I was afraid of being punished, or afraid that we would stop LDD, or break from it. I don’t know. I think I need some time to reflect on it. Emotional submission begins? Who knows. I wish knew somebody who lived this lifestyle. I would love to talk to another LDD wife. I feel like we are going blind here.